inspirational

so today during zero period physics, something really important happened.

as usual, i was bitching about life and physics and how i'm gonna be fucked for monday's test.

and this test is important.

it means a lot. not only in terms of grade. but mostly proving myself to my parents and being able to hang out with amy without any guilt.

unfortunately, i don't get wtf is going on in that class anymore. mr. van talks in some animal language. fuck i don't understand any shit that comes out of his mouth.

unable to control my anger, i swung my fist in the air and said "LIFE IS A PENIS FACE!"

no one really heard except aram who was sitting in front of me.

and this is the important part.

this guy.

aram.

who always just makes me laugh because of his clumsiness and his ridiculous behavior in general, say something that changed my mood completely.

i honestly underestimated him but i now realize that i made a grave mistake.

anyways... he responds to my sudden burst of anger.

he first gently smiles and has a very comforting look on his face.

and he says...

"if you're going through hell, keep walking. winston churchill."

hell might sound like an exaggeration for a physics test.

but that's not all.

my life has been pretty crappy for the past few months except rare occasions of happiness and one very good day.

i don't know if that makes sense.

anyways...

i have been having quite a bit of family problem. i found out very sad things. very heartbreaking news about my father but i'll save that for later.

so to me, past few months have been literally hell.

and i have been whining and bitching about it all. hell, i almost teared up one day. yea it was pretty bad. and the worst part is that i never saw the end of the tunnel. i couldn't see the light at the end. the horrible journey just seemed never ending.

when aram said this line, i suddenly felt calm and something rushed in my body.

something fresh. something warm. something profound.

and ever since he told me that, i've been telling myself... "keep walking. keep walking"

it's only been one day, but very effective.

i am now more determine than ever.

winston churchill must be one intense guy...